Sams Simply Saying...

— THE DEEPEST PART OF MY SOUL.

l3nf:

I HAD TO DO IT….

IM “VALID LIKE SALAD”

SO MY TUMBLR IS SUPPOSED TO BE A REPRESENTATION OF WHO I AM TO A CERTAIN EXTENT, AND WHILE I WAS SCROLLING THROUGH MY POSTS I NOTICED THERE WAS NOTHING ON HERE REFLECTING MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD, WHICH SAYS A LOT. REGARDLESS OF THAT FACT I WANTED TO SHARE A LITTLE ABOUT MY JOURNEY ESPECIALLY ABOUT MY STRUGGLE WITH TRYING TO STAY TRUE TO THE WOMAN GOD CREATED ME TO BE WHILE LIVING ON A COLLEGE CAMPUS. SO, I GOT BAPTIZED ON OCTOBER 19TH 2009. THE ACTUAL DAY I GAVE MY LIFE TO CHRIST WAS PROBABLY A FEW MONTHS PRIOR TO THAT. I HAD A VERY TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCE WHICH FORCED ME TO MOVE TO NORTH CAROLINA AND BECAUSE OF MY FAMILY I WAS INSTANTLY PLUGGED INTO THEIR CHURCH. LONG STORY SHORT GETTING TO KNOW JESUS ON A PERSONAL LEVEL CHANGED MY LIFE. I BECAME CONFIDENT IN KNOWING THAT GOD HAD A PLAN FOR ME AND I WAS DESTINED TO BE SOMETHING SIGNIFICANTLY GREAT. I STARTED TO SEE MYSELF AS BEAUTIFUL (I ALWAYS THOUGHT I WAS VERY UNATTRACTIVE), I EVEN STARTED BRANCHING OUT AND EXPRESSING MYSELF MORE. SO A YEAR PASSED AND I CONTINUED TO GROW AS A CHRISTIAN; I FASTED, PRAYED AND READ MY BIBLE DAILY. I WAS ALSO DEEPLY CONNECTED IN MY CHURCH. THE WAY I ACTED AND THOUGHT WAS COMPLETELY TRANSFORMED. THEN I TRANSFERRED TO WSSU. AT FIRST I REMAINED TRUE TO MYSELF, THEN AFTER A WHILE OF BEING AROUND CONSTANT PARTYING AND THE WHOLE 9 YARDS I SLOWLY STOPPED READING MY BIBLE BECAUSE I WAS “TOO TIRED” AT NIGHT, THEN I STOPPED PRAYING, AND I STOPPED ATTENDING CHURCH AS FREQUENTLY AS I DID BEFORE. I’VE COME TO TERMS WITH MY RELAPSE BACK TO THE OLD ME AND BY NO MEANS AM I LOOKING FOR PITY. I JUST WANTED TO EXPRESS MYSELF. I DON’T WANT TO BE LOOKED AT AS A HYPOCRITE, ITS VERY DIFFICULT TO GO AWAY TO COLLEGE AND STAY TRUE TO THE PERSON YOU WERE BEFORE GOING TO COLLEGE. THIS SUMMER I AM WORKING ON MY RELATIONSHIP WITH THE LORD BECAUSE I TRULY FEEL THAT THE CLOSER I AM WITH HIM THE MORE STABLE AND LEVEL HEADED I AM. THATS ALL FOLKS. I LOVE ALL OF MY FOLLOWERS JUST WANTED TO SHARE A LITTLE WITH YOU GUYS :)

When most think of a Christians they think of someone who is judgmental and a hypocrite. Well its sad to say most “christians” live up to that. Well im here to talk about me not the others. So I can remember like 2 yrs ago I developed a personal relationship with Christ. He drastically changed me! he was the only one there to tell me I was beautiful even when i hated my physical appearance, when i hated what i saw in the mirror. When i was broke some way some how I made it. He allowed me to be bold and courageous b/c i knew in His word it said that He would never leave nor forsake me and everything I go through is to build me up and to help me prosper and bring glory to His kingdom. Well I started feeling beautiful being confident and I grew to be fearless. The things i spoke about were different from most ppl my age, i couldnt help but talk about the Joy Jesus brought into my life. Now Its not the same, My moves changed the way i speak changed but does that make me a hypocrite. Like everyone else I have a sinful nature. I’m not sayin i go out and act crazy on purpose, I still feel conviction when I go against the Bible and I ask for forgiveness but I feel trapped by my sinful nature. I dont mean to come across as a hypocrite and if i do I want to formally apologize to anyone I have caused to stumble in their walk with the Lord. This is a growing season for me and I’m regaining strength and obedience to the Bible and to the Lord so bear with me guys.  

LOVE, SAM

sunflowerlovepeacehappiness:

If ur an artist, reblogg dat

thefeatherbed:

that cardigan …

he-gets-the-girl:

mad real

this.